my thoughts this morning:
I was listening to NPR while getting ready for my interview.. The biggest news is N. Korea's declaration that they have nukes. Since when was this new information? They've been saying that for quite a while now, Bush has just been brushing it aside. And correct me if I'm wrong... but don't we have nukes? Nobody could convince me we don't have millions or  billions of dollars invested in our own hideous weapons. Where the hell is our regime change?

--time warp to the present--
I'm back from the interview at Neulogic Media, I got all spiffied up, dressed in all black so I looked as sophisticated as I possibly could. Kiersten told me I looked "perdy" haha. Oh my gosh, I can't say enough about this job, it would be my dream job!! We went across the street and did the interview at a coffee shop, he bought me coffee, we talked geek-talk for an hour... it was perfect. He said I would be doing graphic production and page design and then told me to think about how much I would want to make and he just needs to see if they can convince the money guy in the company to let him hire me!! It wouldn't be full time but if I get paid just enough I could make it work without getting another job. Though I doubt that will happen if their budget is tight.. but I wouldn't mind having another part-time job in addition, if it would make this job happen that's enough for me. Now all I can do is wait...

Any time tomorrow I will lie and say I'm fine
I'll say yes when I mean no
And any time tomorrow
The sun will cease to shine
There's a shadowman who told me so
Any time tomorrow the rain will play a part
Of a play I used to know
Like no other
Used to know it all by heart
But a shadowman inside has let it go
Oh no, let go of my hand
Oh no, not now I'm down, my friend
You came to me anew
Or was it me who came to you
Shadowman
Any time tomorrow a part of me will die
And a new one will be born
Any time tomorrow
I'll get sick of asking why
Sick of all the darkness I have worn
Any time tomorrow
I will try to do what's right
Making sense of all I can
Any time tomorrow
I'll pretend to see the light
I just might
Shadowman
Oh here's the sun again
Isn't it appealing to recline
Get blinded and to go into the light again
Doesn't it make you sad
To see so much love denied
See nothing but a shadowman inside

Oh, if you're coming down to rescue me
Now would be perfect
Please, if you're coming down to rescue me
Now would be perfect...

-k's choice

Why is it so damn hard to go to school?
It just really frustrates me that it's such a hard process when it should be the easiest thing in the world. *You would think our government would help in any way possible to help further educate and therefore advance its citizens.* But no, education of its citizens means we are harder to fool. Instead you have to consign yourself to building a mountain of debt (which even that is hard to do because you can't find the dirt to borrow anywhere!) in exchange for personal freedom and knowledge of how the world really works and a better chance at financial freedom later in life. I don't know what to do. *Every quarter I go through this* and I can't help but think about giving up because I can't handle this bullshit every single time. Every three months. I still have five trimesters left, I can't imagine how I'm going to do it. I finally let myself accept that I would owe a ton of money when I graduated. But now that I've done that, suddenly the loans aren't there anymore.

hopefully an answer will come...